Friday, April 10, 2009

I think creating a life really inspires me to surround myself with living things. Today we planted a few herbs to keep on my kitchen window sill. I was probably more excited that I should be to find pineapple mint!!!!!

Here's our little stowaway. I hope he sticks around so the kids can see him form his crystalis and morph into a butterfly.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

She can swing like a big girl now

It wasn't until I became a mother that I realized my whole life could change in one moment. The first, of course, being when the world spun around me like a vortex to another world, in my bathroom after that teeny tiny second line smiled up at me. From that moment on, every decison I made from what I ate to what I spent money on, was for someone other than ME.

Over the last 5 years I've had many life changing days; some big like the births of my children and some smaller like the fist day nursing didn't hurt. Don't be mistaken, my life before children had plenty of memorable days that changed the course of my life, but these are different. These moments for the most part aren't by my choosing, they're inevitable and all I can do is sit back and soak in how amazing they are. I can't wish the days away, hoping that things will be easier when.... (fill in the blank, because really I have about 20 of them I could list off the top of my head). I keep reminding myself that "this is just a stage" and I try and smile through it because I know it'll change so fast that soon I'll be telling my friends how much I missed it when A needed me to swing her or M had to have me watch him go down the slide e.v.e.r.y. s.i.n.g.l.e t.i.m.e! My life is no longer completely my own. For a former control freak, this is very liberating.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

What I'm loving right now

I know this is so random, but I think it captures the essence of my nesting right now. I feel like I'm digging out these little comfort holes for myself. Some of them I'm creating, by surround myself with things I love and some of them are capturing moments I love and letting them linger.

Simple and order. This is exactly what I feel like I need in order to prepare myself for being outnumbered by kids in two months.

Fake sleeping. A, who is going to be the big, BIG sister, pretends to sleep whenever Daddy is driving so that he can carry her into the house. Did I mention how much I love, her love for her Daddy.

Digging for worms. This has been A's sole mission for the last week or so. She's even recruited her brother to help her overturn every brick and rock between here and Mimi's house.

Bluebonnets in the big city. Who would have thought that I'd be treated with such untamed beauty in the fourth largest city!

Old and homey. I finally displayed my collection of estate sale pot holders. Our neighborhood is turning over and I've been to a few estate sales in the last 4 years. Every time I walk in the door of one of my experienced neighbors, my heart flutters with excitement and sadness. I love to find all of these wonderful treasures that are left behind like junk, but at one time were held dear by someone. These are a few of my favorite.

Wrestling. The kids are playing outside from the moment they wake up until it's time to come in for dinner. They love each other so much, my heart giggles. Yes they fight and cry too, but moments like these prove to be more lasting and powerful than the tears.