Thursday, February 21, 2008
But what does it meeeeeean????
I woke up sad this morning because of a dream. Weird.I dreamed that I was back in school and I just wasn't going to class. When I looked at the clock it was 1 and I missed all my classes that day AGAIN. So I walked to a friends and told her I was depressed. Then I woke up sad.I'm not depressed, but I DO miss school and teaching. So, while I'm nursing Martin in the bed this morning, I tell this to DH and he says, "Wow, I was just watching you sleep this morning and I was sad for you." I asked why and he said, "Because I was wondering if you missed teaching. You worked so hard for it." Then I told him that I do miss it, but I'd miss this more."So here I am, 27 years old and in the middle of the modern mom's dilemma. Work out of the home or stay at home. Fortunately or I guess sometimes it feels like unfortunately, I have an option. I know we are blessed to be in a situation where I have the choice, but knowing that I can choose and don't have to just suck it up and survive, makes it harder for me. I KNOW, I KNOW where's the mini violin.