Thursday, February 21, 2008

But what does it meeeeeean????

I woke up sad this morning because of a dream. Weird.I dreamed that I was back in school and I just wasn't going to class. When I looked at the clock it was 1 and I missed all my classes that day AGAIN. So I walked to a friends and told her I was depressed. Then I woke up sad.I'm not depressed, but I DO miss school and teaching. So, while I'm nursing Martin in the bed this morning, I tell this to DH and he says, "Wow, I was just watching you sleep this morning and I was sad for you." I asked why and he said, "Because I was wondering if you missed teaching. You worked so hard for it." Then I told him that I do miss it, but I'd miss this more."So here I am, 27 years old and in the middle of the modern mom's dilemma. Work out of the home or stay at home. Fortunately or I guess sometimes it feels like unfortunately, I have an option. I know we are blessed to be in a situation where I have the choice, but knowing that I can choose and don't have to just suck it up and survive, makes it harder for me. I KNOW, I KNOW where's the mini violin.


bellebearberry said...

Just remember - you can always go back to teaching, you will never get back the time you spent nursing your little ones.

Seriously. I worked until Holly was 3 and I sooo realize what I missed with her.

I always dream of the time when I will be back in the work force again.

You don't have to do it all at once.

Sue said...

I know I made the right choice, but I revisit this decision every day. I DO miss my old life, but going back to work would not be my "old life" and when I consider the logistics of working now, I get more tired than I already am!