Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I've lost my mojo

I just can't get my swing back.

I decided to cave to peer pressure and enroll my kids in a few classes. Normally, I'd say I'm a play-outside-because-it's-free-and-good-for-you kinda mom and really? aren't classes this young kinda like sex in the hot tub? A waste of time, but you keep trying because somewhere you heard it was fun. Yeah, I quit. We'll wait a few more months and try again... just like we did with...

I feel like I'm just chasing my tail all day long. With the intense swim classes... which totally make me feel like a loser mom who can't keep the house clean, the clothes washed and the peoples fed just because I threw one measly 30 min. class into my schedule... my house is messy and I swear every time I wash the damn clothes they just multiply instead of actually get cleaned and put away. Oh and throw in a little boy who strips down every turn of the hour, a little missy who has a minimum of three tea parties a day - with water - and a bebe who didn't get the memo that it's time to eat every 4-5 hours instead of 2! and there you have it ladies and gents... where I've lost my mojo. I have fond memories of being able to handle it all. Clean floors. Homemade meals. Smiling and laughing with the kids. Brushing my teeth before noon. I'll spare you some of the other details, lest they get back to my extended family which would only result in lots of tsk, tsks and secret phone calls. But there is hope. I quit swim classes to the cheers of a little man in the house - and momma too!-, the weather's nice and if I can just clean my house I might be able to find where in the hell I put my mojo. I'd love to have it back.


missmama said...

Give yourself a break! Your kids are fed and happy and thats all that matters until they leave home. No one is going to remember the laundry, or the floors, or what time you clean your teeth. I'm glad you gave up swimming! Maybe you should find a class where you drop your kids off to take a deep breath and maybe brush your teeth?

Can I stop by on Monday for a little while and hold my baby? (w/o Bella)

Sue @ Laundry for Six said...

It WILL come back one day! (Or that's what I hear anyway.) I think the ultimate lesson of parenting is to learn to give up control and live amidst the chaos. It's STILL hard for me.