But what does it meeeeeean????

I woke up sad this morning because of a dream. Weird.I dreamed that I was back in school and I just wasn't going to class. When I looked at the clock it was 1 and I missed all my classes that day AGAIN. So I walked to a friends and told her I was depressed. Then I woke up sad.I'm not depressed, but I DO miss school and teaching. So, while I'm nursing Martin in the bed this morning, I tell this to DH and he says, "Wow, I was just watching you sleep this morning and I was sad for you." I asked why and he said, "Because I was wondering if you missed teaching. You worked so hard for it." Then I told him that I do miss it, but I'd miss this more."So here I am, 27 years old and in the middle of the modern mom's dilemma. Work out of the home or stay at home. Fortunately or I guess sometimes it feels like unfortunately, I have an option. I know we are blessed to be in a situation where I have the choice, but knowing that I can choose and don't have to just suck it up and survive, makes it harder for me. I KNOW, I KNOW where's the mini violin.

How old are you???

So how is it that when I'm cuddling with my sweet baby boy while he's drifting off to sleep and he lets out a man fart, I start laughing so hard I'm snorting??? What is it about baby farts that is so funny? I'm sure it's because they are MY BABIES and everything they do when they are this little is cute. Now my two year old farting is less funny. When she does it on accident while laughing - cute. Any other time - less cute.

The law of bathroom time.

Someone will wake up from their nap, someone will call or someone will knock on your door.

"Special" drawer

So things are starting to get back to normal. Well normal with a two year old and an almost walking 10 month old. This morning Martin and I were greeted by Tigger dressed as a little girl!! I love it! Then we discovered that little Miss ants in her pants decided to play detective in the wee hours of the morning and found our "special" drawer. So yeah now I've got to find a way to get an unnamed substance out of carpet. Now I ask you, is this the face of a mischievous child????

Catching up

Boy that was a whirlwind of crazy. We had a good Christmas. Martin just went back to work and this was our first week of calm and normal. The kids had a great time with their Daddy. Here's what the last 3 weeks have been like for us in pictures.

The holidays with the VanDenBossches....

A hay ride,
An ornament party,

Yummy candy,

and a few tears,

Learning to play new games,

and Lots of rest,
Pancakes with Daddy,

and Cookies with Mommy,
A trip to Sesame Street,

and, of course, a visit with Santa !

Calm before the storm??

It's Christmas eve and I'm sitting here listening to Martin make breakfast with Allie at his side. I love it. She's soaking up so much right now and I feel like the pressure is on to be the best role model for her. Brushing teeth, opening doors, yes ma'am, no thank you, please sir, cleaning up toys, kisses and hugs, sharing, living in the moment, prayers, being thankful..... the list just goes on and on except there is no list!

We made it!!!!

Tonight was our 5 year anniversary. We got all dressed up, dropped the kids off with my mom and dad and went out to a nice dinner. It was wonderful. I didn't realize how busy we've been since we had kids. Martin and I have been together for 10 years now and for the first 7 years of our relationship all we did was obsess over each other. Every fight, walk, kiss, look and touch felt like it lasted for an eternity. We could take the time to focus on why we were upset and how we were going to be more considerate of each other's feelings. Good Lord, I'm lucky if by the end of the day, I remember what, if or why Martin and I were fighting. We usually just pretend like it didn't happen, since neither one of us has the energy to argue or the memory to make valid points. Earlier this week, Martin and I called a truce, to forgive and forget, well just forgive each other for all the petty little fighting we've been doing. After our truce, we really needed to spend some time together reconnecting. So tonight was much needed.

In preparation for our big date, I finished up all my chores, took a long hot shower, did a mini facial, and pedicure. I was trying to bring sexy back, so I had on a cute little dress with my fancy leopard heels. I carefully applied my eyeshadow, just the way the MaryKay lady showed me and I even wore matching bra and panties!!!

When we got to the restaurant, The Melting Pot, Martin had a bouquet of flowers waiting for me at the table. We sat close to each other and talked and laughed and flirted like we did when we were dating. Well in my attempt to be all seductive, I gave the hostess at the restaurant a little more than she bargained for. She came to our table to take a picture for our anniversary, and this is what she saw......



yeah, so I guess you're not supposed to put nursing boobs in a regular bra!